October 4, 2010

Hey Everyone!
Well, I got the call! Gosh it felt like I was waiting for my mission call all over again and the feeling of leaving Springfield is like the feeling I felt when I left home for the MTC. I love Springfield so much! It's become my home and the people here have become my family! I'm just so grateful for Eternity! As I've said before, my understanding of Eternity has increased so much on my mission and I've had the realization for myself that it's not just family that's forever, it's friends too! Ok, now I'll tell you where I'm going. It's not 100% positive that this is the place, but by the rule of elimination, I'm most likely going to Willamina, OR, which is up by Salem, OR. My companion is Sister Abbott. I'm excited for the change, because it gives me the chance to jump out of my comfort zone again and grow. I think it was President Uchtdorf this weekend who talked about how trees grow the most when the conditions are ideal, but they grow the strongest when conditions are not ideal. I'm looking forward to not ideal conditions, so I can strengthen my testimony to be able to strengthen others.
I LOVED Conference this weekend! On Saturday morning I woke up with horrible feelings about myself. I've been really overwhelmed with feeling that I'm not good enough and that I have SO MUCH to change about myself and to improve. I had a question of how to do that and how to feel happy again as I went to Angel's to watch conference. My questions were answered in nearly every single talk! I think one of my absolute favorites was Elder Holland's talk. He is such an amazing man! I loved the feeling of uplifting that all of the speakers had. It was like they were speaking right to me and telling me that I'm too hard on myself and that I need to just get back to my basics. I was in tears most of the first session of Saturday Conference. It was so beautiful! I also really enjoyed President Uchtdorf's talk and President Monson's talk and... ok, I pretty much LOVED all of them!!!! Ha! I'm looking forward to the Ensign next month!
It was so fun to see Laurent on the TV. I saw him like 50 times I swear! It was so much fun! I felt almost like I was right there. I really miss Utah so much right now. Seeing the temple grounds made me excited to go there this time next year! Don't get me wrong, I love my mission, but there's a feeling in Utah that isn't anywhere else and I miss it sometimes!
I love you all so much! President Monson said a very profound thing yesterday about gratitude. He said, "Gratitude felt but not shown is like wrapping a gift and not giving it." (or something like that) So, I want to thank all of you for your love and support! You keep me going when I feel I have nothing left to give. It never fails that at those moments when I'm ready to throw in the towel, my Heavenly Father inspires someone to write me a letter or send me an email that keeps me going! Thanks for being inspired and following the Spirit! It blesses my life and many others! I also want you all to know that I KNOW that this work is the work of Heavenly Father! I thank Him for all that I've been given! I have a beautiful family who loves and supports me unconditionally. I have friends who I can testify have been by my side for eternity (I call them my forever friends! :) ) Even if I only met them a few months ago or if I met them 21 years ago, I know we've known each other forever and will know each other forever! That's my testimony of forever and of the blessings of Heavenly Father. They're real!
Love you,
Love,
Sister Losee